The love of my Life

Sharing more photos from my instagram account. Did I mentioned I love her so much? I am looking forward for her to go to kindergarten next year, at the same school I am teaching. :) I wish for her to get the education she will need growing up. I am so bless with this little miss cutie pie.

Scanned memo sheets from Daiso

I am totally obsessed with memo pads and unfortunately it is hard to get them in other stores except from Daiso and that I need to travel out of town to get them. Here are some memo sheets for y'all.

Enjoy! I will scan more in the future. I do not own them and credits go to their respectful owner.

**the above are from Daiso

my little star

She is my Niece, Qaleisya. She is such a joy brought into our life. I watched her grow up and time passes by so fast. If only my dad could see how wonderful she has been! I miss my dad and she resembles a little bit like him whenever she smiles or laughs. Allah has bless us with a wonderful family and I am striving to keep it healthy too! I haven't told anyone about what I am currently into... it is a secret though :) and not many people know about it. I tend to keep it that way. I do not wish for a whole lot but to stay strong and be strong.

"she is our joy, we live to love

and she is our life, that you cannot toy.."

a new gif

I finally made a new gif :) I have some spare time to edit a simple one and boy do I miss it! And of course non other than my favourite performer, Ayumi Hamasaki. 

**gif belongs to me, ayujaded

escaped soul

** gif was made by me, ayujaded

I've spent my life

Years on earth

Upon the darkest sky

No one would ever know

The reason why

I've cherished all the years

To stay away, from the darkness

Of your falling grace

Let the letters in my speech

To decode all my hate

I will see you fall on your knees

You dare to tell my soul to wait

For what you've done to me

And now I shall not debate

As I've reached upon, my highest patience

For me to kill you away

Bless you

And I do not mind

To be blamed

No one would ever know

The reason why

No one would ever know

The blood in my teary cry

Alsa Haslinda (c) Copyright 2014

refuse to go

This was inspired by the movie "the lovely bones" too much evil in the world but then karma comes crashing in..

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and her life ends here
watching her love from afar
every inch feels like a mile
and every mile
feels like a thousand light years away
she's astray in between life and death
not knowing when she had her last breath

"the flowery fields with dove,
yield my nature's heath,
as your child is sicken by the patrons
of your world, I simply can't believe"

"take me as you wish," she said.
and she shall stay tacit
and not a sound nor gaze,
shall leave her grace

and yet she stays obscured,
as she looked away,
not wanting to see
as the light has now begin to disappear
and it is darkening my whole world
you made it such, a living hell
as no one knew you well, the will to make you fall
is the greatest hope of all
soon we'll meet and we shall soon have a brawl
and we shall see who will win it all and stands tall

Alsa Haslinda (c) Copyright 2014

missing wings

** the GIF above was made by me © ayujaded

Misty forest, seek upon my missing love
with broken wings, sent from the above
Doth thy mention his name, for him to home came?
The coldness of winter shoves off this sin
a sin of those who kills to win

where is the love of my beloved darling?

He was hidden from me, into the darkness deep within
Though sins are only to those who despise for who you are
But my inner heart of saints, will overcome the sins of your kind
Give him back to me wherever he was kept
For you’ll sure to feel my darkest wrath

Where is the love of my beloved darling?

The Gods have mercy, please!
I missed his love, which is killing me
Slowly from my inner soul at ease
His eyes were made from gold
Filled with passion, and his heart was bold

Time is passing by; he is yet to come home
I am shivering, as this coldness
Is touching through my bones

Where is he? Where is he?
My only love is still far
Hidden from my eyes
into the shinning star

Where is the love of my beloved darling?

Alsa Haslinda © Copyright 2014

Divergent

Not only I love the books, I love the movie as well. Usually they do not necessarily make the movie as good as the books and I am lazy to watch the adaptations of any of my favourite books but I gave it a chance. I am obsessed with the movie and I plan of creating crazy gifs as a tribute to it! I love it!

Poem - Dying World

image - full credit goes to X

Captured and sealed, from the wonders of all

Beyond thy life, on thousands of wall

Life was created, and to be lived

Offspring of us all, was alive since conceive

A vein of pitch green wobbles into us all

Feeling the aura, of many weaknesses

Throbbing to live, for our lovers’ many kisses

No truce to be used, and just bloody kill

To end all the worlds and confuses

These were the words; you’d killed us to kneel

No matter how it is like or to how we feel

There will be no other way

But to kill, killing the innocents

And concealed it with vengeance

That never did took place, by lying onto our face

Massacring our souls, making us devouring

Your sweet evils trace, but later hungers

Thyself with a chase, brothers and sisters of my blood

Do save us from this craze, by weeping us off

From this maze, I scared of defeat

Not through forcing, but through the beat

The beat of our hearts, in one unity

Bringing down those who has been taken our sanity

So we all could be happy, living in harmony 

Ayumi Hamasaki

Every one was into Kpop and the hyped has been around since 2000. I was very much into boybands like Backstreet boys and Nsync. I was never really familiar with Korean and I have never heard of it until I watch Autumn In My Heart. And still, it never catches my attention. While everyone was into all sorts of stuff, I love any thing to do with Japan. I love its culture, language and food. 

And then comes Ayumi Hamasaki

(**graphics with ayujaded mark on them belongs to me)

And I love the fact that I was actually into her more than any artist (unless they are Paramore - I have been to their shows twice!!) in the world. I'd rather spend my money to see her in concert because it was worthy! I have been watching all of her concerts and all of her shows and she gives nothing but great and fun shows! I wanted to be in each and every concert I see! Gaga? Beyonce? or other mainstream artist? I'll pass. 

Her songs have always been so meaningful thanks to a lot of translators out there. It is great to see there are more Ayumi fans out there. Do not take my words for it, just give her a try.